..that maybe I don*t give myself as much credit as I should. Then again, in some cases, maybe I give myself TOO much credit. It*s difficult to find the perfect balance when your mind feels scrammbled, unorganized..
I*m thinking, I need to find a new variety of friends. Friends that have the same interests as I do, especially in the work department. I*m mostly out of my party phase, I don*t think anything is worth staying up after 11:30pm unless I*m spending time with my boo, who I only get to see once, maybe twice a week. That in itself is heartbreaking, but I maintain myself somehow..
I know, after my Europe trip, I lost my steady gym visits & spoiled myself. Rotton. My work ethic at my retail job slipped as I didn*t know what in the world to do with myself, what I wanted in life, what I wanted to be, who I wanted in my life... Those I don*t need, still are, & I can*t find myself a backbone to let em' drop..
I am positive, that I have a kind heart. I love making people happy, making people feel wanted & loved when they need it most. Giving someone a shoulder to cry on, giving the best advice I*m capable of giving. Getting on someone*s level, making someone snicker, laugh or snort. 
Make*s me love life that much more..
I am optimistic, intellegent, & alive. I want to learn everything there is to learn in this world. I*ve discovered within myself, & my open mind, that I hold the ability to learn what I want to learn. & that can be anything (& everything) that I want it to be. From this point on, I*m challenging myself to a lifelong goal: To live, laugh, love, & learn.
~Later Days
